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Ashamed

I’m ashamed of the fact that I have manic depression; if people find out then they’ll deem me as “crazy” & find me undesirable. Trying to keep the big secret; like trying to hide the elephant in the room. I’m ashamed that I feel so deeply & intensely.
No one will want me if they know I’m sick…

"Let’s not go around pretending like we care In the end you weren’t there At this point I no longer care Especially for a love this unfair"

- You have no clue what I’m going through; you can’t see through me. If you could then you’d know I wasn’t making suicide threat; I no longer confess my thoughts or emotions to you. I was telling you that I’m letting you go. Everything I do bothers you & the way I feel or what I think is just bullshit; your actions scream that you don’t care so why stay commited to someone who is always “sick” of me? God forbid you’re there for me. Why stay with someone who considers me a bother & why stay when I can be alone as you make me feel? At least I won’t be tied down to someone who doesn’t even know I exist anymore; there’s no reason for “us” anymore & it’s now clear to me how you really feel. If you want to act single then really be single.

Been feeling really depressed & hopeless as though this is never going to end & that there’s no way out. More than anything I want to start over cause its all down hill from here & I want out. I feel like dying.

rock-quote:

Rock Quotes

"Watch me motherfucker"

rock-quote:

Rock Quotes

"Watch me motherfucker"

"Get up and brush the dirty off my psyche."

- Tyler the Creator
"Oh Captain My Captain!"
When I heard that you had passed away I had began to cry. You had changed my way of looking at things and always put a smile on my face; you’re one of my favorite actors as a kid, you were quite popular in the 90’s and I can name all your movies from that era. When I was a teenager I would watch your stand up with my mom late at night & eat ice cream. 
You are one of the greatest actors of my time; you will be greatly missed. 
Rest in Peace Robin Williams
July 21st, 1951-August 11th,2014

"Oh Captain My Captain!"
When I heard that you had passed away I had began to cry. You had changed my way of looking at things and always put a smile on my face; you’re one of my favorite actors as a kid, you were quite popular in the 90’s and I can name all your movies from that era. When I was a teenager I would watch your stand up with my mom late at night & eat ice cream.
You are one of the greatest actors of my time; you will be greatly missed.
Rest in Peace Robin Williams
July 21st, 1951-August 11th,2014

The Relationship Between Creativity and Mental Illness | Brain Pickings   

Very fascinating study this women wrote. I personally had thought the two go hand in hand but she has a totally different out look & through her study has proven that most artist do in fact suffer from mood disorders but it stifles the creative process rather than enhances it.
Recommend giving this a read.

Just got a copy of Pokemon Krystal!! Gonna get my gamer on thanks to the cat for my newest edition. The first two generations have to be my favorite. 
Thanks sweetheart, you’re the best.

Just got a copy of Pokemon Krystal!! Gonna get my gamer on thanks to the cat for my newest edition. The first two generations have to be my favorite.
Thanks sweetheart, you’re the best.

I finally know my favorite brands during my little make up madness shoppping spree.
One the left are the newest eyeliners which I tried & wore for the first time the other day & say that not only are they in my favorite colours but also work amazingly well. Physicians Formula makes awesome face powders/concelers but these eyeliners really added the cherry on top for me; Physicians Formula got bumped up on my list of “must have” products.
On the right is my Maybelline mascara collection (the first four from left to right.) The first one I ever tried was the Rocket kind but would say that Mega Plush makes my lashes look the best. I just recently.got the Pumped Up! & Colossal Regard Feline, I looked forward to trying one out today & showing them off in my next post. I must say that I do like the line & am excited to review them in future posts n_n